11:11pm

back back back back back to the start

2010-08-28T03:48:00.004+08:00

The trouble with tumblr is how lazy it makes me.
So hello julyfifteenth, I'm back, if not for good then at least for now.

Theory:

2009-11-02T02:16:00.000+08:00

Our whole universe was in a hot dense state,
Then nearly fourteen billion years ago expansion started- wait...
The Earth began to cool,
The autotrophs began to drool,
Neanderthals developed tools,
We built a wall (we built the pyramids!),
Math, science, history, unraveling the mysteries,
That all started with the big bang!

BANG!

Make it happen

2009-10-26T14:11:00.000+08:00

LEANNE,
2010 BETTER BE FUCKING AWESOME

2009-10-21T01:25:00.001+08:00

maybe it's time to admit i've wasted time on one investment

My Sister's Keeper, Serendipity, Someone Special

2009-10-17T23:02:00.001+08:00

& suddenly I know what I must work towards in Life.

2009-10-15T23:29:00.001+08:00

i'm hungry and tired and still in school
i want to cry :(

awful

2009-10-15T00:14:00.001+08:00

my awful arm has an awful scar and an awful swell and there's no other word i can use because i feel absolutely awful

Car-ma and Hubris

2009-10-12T13:06:00.006+08:00

The story of Niobe is a prime example of the danger of arrogance. Niobe has the audacity to compare herself to Leto, the mother of Artemis and Apollo, thus elevating herself and her children to the level of the divine. Insulted, the two gods strike all of Niobe’s children dead and turn her into a rock that perpetually weeps. Likewise, young Phaëthon, who pridefully believes he can drive the chariot of his father, the Sun, loses control and burns everything in sight before Zeus knocks him from the sky with a thunderbolt. Similar warnings against hubris are found in the stories of Bellerophon, who bridles the winged Pegasus and tries to ride up to Olympus and join the deities’ revelry, and Arachne, who challenges Athena to a weaving contest and is changed into a spider as punishment. Indeed, any type of hubris or arrogance, no matter the circumstance, is an attitude that no god will leave unpunished.

After dinner with the Adoners and Surrogates on Friday,

Leanne: "You're a great driver but you're not God!"
Titus: "I am God haha!"
Leanne: "Don't say things like that!"
Titus: "I'll never get into an accident."
(drops Leanne home)

15 minutes later on the phone...

Titus: "BABE WHAT THE FUCK I JUST GOT INTO AN ACCIDENT, I FUCKING FELL ASLEEP ON THE WHEEL, FUCK THE CAR IS SMASHED, FUCK MAN!"

Omg :(

2009-10-12T10:59:00.002+08:00

leanne: "baby i feel like shit.. not going to school today :("
titus: "oh.. then what are you going to do at home?"
leanne: "sleep.. study for cog psych?"
titus: "... it's called cock psych?"
leanne: "... cognitive psychology!!!"
titus: "oh. heh heh heh."

2009-10-11T23:35:00.001+08:00

I have so much to do.

Ouch

2009-10-06T17:06:00.004+08:00

Smashed buggies + Darren's head in Bintan.
Smashed my arm in Batam.

I don't think I'm taking a trip to Bali anytime too soon.

Revenge of the Fallen

2009-10-03T02:48:00.002+08:00

This is so bitchy but! It really is amazing what longer hair, contact lenses and make-up classes can do for you. Oh, and that "fresh start" in a new school...

I'M BOWLED OVERRRRRR!

The One That Got Away

2009-10-02T00:23:00.000+08:00

When I think about it carefully, I realize, the day Titus came into my life he erected a huge crossroad. I had a choice to make then which altered my course of life, and perhaps the people around me, drastically.

I chose him over S. Or at least, I thought I'd chosen a meaningless fling over a well-worn broken heart (apparently so did he), but somehow it all changed.

Social psychology suggests maybe we both gave up so much simply for the idea of being with each other that we value what we have a lot more than we had intended. I'm not sure how this matters, but I think it means I'm studying too hard.

$

2009-10-01T00:28:00.007+08:00

BY THE WAY NEW HAIR!

I really don't understand Titus. So my mom passed me my allowance in 50s, and I sheepishly passed him $150. He thought I wanted him to help me save this money (long story about the way I do Houdinis with money, if you're a friend you should know this).

BUT I was trying to return him money since I've been borrowing, what with having a staggering $2.85 left in my account (question me another time okay? I just spent alot when my cousin was here! And I can't help that before that I HAD to spend all my savings on.. like school things. You MUST wear clothes to school right. Plus I was on a few holidays! You shop on holidays, duh. If I hear "Unsustainable Lifestye" again btw, I'll shoot whoever said it and whoever echos with laughter, then I might shoot myself)

Anyway so this is what happens-

Titus: (snatches $100 and returns me $50, wanting me to recalculate the month's expenditure) Pay me back for the Bintan trip first! I'll pass you the change.

Lea: What? NO?? I'm not asking you to keep that money for me you ass I'm returning it!! For uhh when I like you know.. Take money from you..

Titus: Take what money from me??

Lea: Huh?? Your card what! I've been taking money from it to feed myself what!

Titus: Huh?? What????

Lea: YOU SAID CAN WHAT. THE DBS ONE!!!

Titus: OH! Aiyah please la that one nevermind. Just keep it above $xxxxxxxx! As long as it doesn't go under that amount I don't care how much you take.

Lea: Huh? Then Bintan?

Titus: YA pay me back for Bintan!!!!!!!!

Lea: (small voice) You said you'll pay for me... (thinking "Bastard!") I have $10 notes upstairs pass you later.

Titus: Ok take this money back. Don't forget about the Bintan money later!

What the hell, I tried to return $150 (which is um.. maybe a bit less than what I took from you) but you don't care but you're so pissy over $60! DOES THIS MAKE SENSE TO YOU???

fucking poseurs

2009-09-30T15:05:00.006+08:00

this place is filled with throngs of the self-impressed. family money, stunning good looks, a stellar record of having fucked a few worth fucking, a social or academic standing of assumed prominence. where do you fall?

but fuck all that. at least those people have got it made.

the most disgusting of all are the wannabe-indies, the self-proclaimed "differents", "better-thans", "i'm-so-fucking-deep-i-could-drown-you-with-not-so-clever-words". so these people have nothing, or they could've had something, but they sit around studying what they do not have and convince themselves it's shallow. from there they derive some pleasure that they somehow are lucky they haven't got any of that, that they escaped the curse that is mass conformism. immediately after they launch themselves into what they believe their lifestyle should be- the slew of books, movies, music any pretentious poseur should've read, seen, listened to. they are unfuckingconventional.

their pathetic tries to impress only subtly mask the gripes they have about their own worthlessness, the fact that they Cannot fit in. they think they sound profound when the reality is they're saying what everyone around is smart enough to know doesn't need to be said.

SO WAKE UP ALREADY. YOUR PATHETIC WISDOM THAT YOU LEARNED THROUGH A GOOGLE SEARCH FOR CLARIFICATION DOESN'T FUCKING IMPRESS ME. and if those you keep around you are actually genuinely impressed, THAT'S WHERE YOU GOT LUCKY, PLEBEIAN.

laurent bernard is yum

2009-09-28T01:07:00.001+08:00

last night i watched as stupid boys fought over beef at a steamboat BUFFET.

...barker :(

2009-09-24T23:12:00.004+08:00

1: So do you like him?
2: I think I like him... He's so fucking good-looking!

1: I thought you liked the Bentley?
2: Rolls Royce more expensive!!

shmuel

2009-09-24T22:55:00.003+08:00

titus is the boy in the striped pyjamas in amoyquee.
muahahah, i'm the nazi!!!

in other news, glenn is back in kl, i'm easing back into the normality of school. can't wait for break week, then can't wait for december, can wait for february, but can't wait for next summer! also can't wait for my next allowance... so broke :(

& school on two saturdays? really? this is punishment for skipping classes because i didn't manage to wake up. omg midterm exam next week, hair cut yesterday, photoshoot tomorrow, needtoparty, fucking addicts, battery's flat, on the phone too, annoying people, discrimination readings, there's so much running through my head right now!

but most important thing of tonight: RUM.
cheerrrssss to you mister mooney

2009-09-14T03:14:00.000+08:00

what an awesome sunday

2009-09-12T02:16:00.003+08:00

How twisted do we have to be that loss becomes a means to attention?

lonely september

2009-09-08T02:14:00.001+08:00

these days the weekends are all to look forward to

fly me away somewhere i'm in desperate need of a holiday

2009-09-05T04:03:00.002+08:00

funny thing happend today-

went prawning with the cousins, some kickass weird bimbs shoves in on our area and sticks her not-so-pleasant ass fully in wenzheng's face. we wait a while for them to show some semblance of courtesy, they don't, he tells them to go away. one girl make some lame remark about the generosity of singaporeans, i make a response about their stupidity (seriously, anyone who tries to slang and calls their boyf "lingling" has serious issues).

the airhead bitches for a while and when no one cares, starts talking about her job, her pay, her life in london, her imaginary pay, her rgs background, her 9-1 office male-female ratio leading to her being on exhibition- mirror check, honey!, her use of the abbreviation "NSK" (i mean it, she literally discussed how she's so special knowing what it means), her going to work at jp morgan easily if she wanted to, her making her boobs smaller- ok i kid, but god i forgot the rest, damn it was so damn boring but her voice was damn fucking annoying!

but as much as it was really pathetic and sad, titus did mention it shows how family background really stops counting at a certain age. it made me worry about what i can earn for myself next time.

2009-08-29T03:43:00.000+08:00

physical or emotional trauma begs the question

2009-08-28T17:59:00.000+08:00

i want to be everything and nothing at the same time

2009-08-28T15:40:00.002+08:00

"envelope girl" hahah a thousand smiles

i spilled tea (teh katai) all over my laptop. now my spacebar takes about 3 hits before it works. there's smth about tea and me in smu that just doesn't work out. in any case i suppose i'll be drinking less of that since bash is over! :) :) :)

Foray

2009-08-26T01:49:00.004+08:00

The Time Traveller's Wife, Audrey Niffenegger
The History of Love, Nicole Krauss
The Lovely Bones, Alive Sebold
Never Let Me Go, Kazuo Ishiguro
His Dark Materials Trilogy, Philip Pullman
Veronika Decides to Die, Paulo Coelho
A Little Princess, Frances Hodgson Burnet
The Secret Garden, Frances Hodgson Burnet
Dracula, Bram Stoker
A Clockwork Orange, Anthony Burgess
Brave New World, Aldous Huxley
The Age Of Innocence, Edith Wharton
Catch 22, Joseph Heller
The Catcher In The Rye, J.D. Sallinger
To Kill A Mockingbird, Harper Lee
My Sister's Keeper, Jodi Picoult
The Memory Keeper's Daughter, Kim Edwards
Life of Pi, Yann Martel
A Wrinkle In Time, Madeleine L'Engel
The Phantom Tollbooth, Norton Juster
Memoirs of A Geisha, Arthur Golden
A Thousand Splendid Suns, Khaled Hosseini
Atonement, Ian McEwan
Harry Potter, J.K. Rowling
Love In The Time of Cholera, Gabriel Garcia Marquez
Neverwhere, Neil Gaiman
The Great Gatsby, F. Scott Fitzgerald
Norwegian Wood, Haruki Murakami

Hi Titus

2009-08-04T03:03:00.001+08:00

Today I was shocked by 3 things. Well, 2 half-things and 1 thing.

(0.5) Titus told me he does plan to do his Master's.
(0.5) Titus told me he would like me to follow him when he does.
(2) Titus is really good at that puzzle game with 15 numbers.

Tiny Vessels

2009-07-31T16:44:00.002+08:00

Sleeping at 7am after twilight conversations in a playground in my estate and waking up at 5pm to homemade milk tea and drama series about 3 best friends. Then going to bed again at 7am and waking up at 5pm to laze around until the sleepover we're too old for begins. Repeat the cycle, except by 5pm you've really got to be at the airport. This is what makes a true holiday. Still I almost can't wait for school to start; it's time to buck up with your academia, Lea.

2009-07-25T02:50:00.004+08:00

I make them good girls go bad

Most of all I like you

2009-07-20T18:47:00.019+08:00

To T.:

I like the way old books feel;
It's like entering a new world
that someone discovered and once loved
then left for others to explore.

I like the crisp of new clothes and bags;
It's like playing dress-up as a child-
create whatever you want to be,
and live as one of a kind.

I like that life is full of contradictions
yet there is logic to it all.
It's like magic, or time-travel-
filled with loopholes we ignore.

I like how love exists
in the faintest blinking of an eye.
It's like the heart is primary,
and signals substance to the mind.

Most of all I like you-
the way you look at me and smile.
I like the moments held in place;
I love our every little while.

I love the way you read me,
and the things that make us match;
I love the discord we always face,
I love the electric our souls catch.

Most of all I like you-
You show me everything I can do.
Most of all I like you-
I love the make of me with you.

(And if our novel is incomplete
or has the worst of endings,
I hope that you will always feel:
We shared the best beginnings)

2009-07-17T01:07:00.001+08:00

contrary to what i expected, my birthday week was frikkin' great :)
i'm leaving for hongkong in five hours and i'm still not quite packed, but i'll write more after this weekend shopping spree. love and thanks to all who loved me this week! <3

I hate my 20th birthday

2009-07-06T20:39:00.009+08:00

HI, WOULD YOU LIKE TO KNOW MY BIRTHDAY SCHEDULE?

10th: Pageant Interviews from 7pm to 10pm
11th: Pageant Interviews from 10am to 10pm
12th: Social Science Camp
13th: Social Science Camp
14th: Intended to leave camp early for Equinox, GOT CANCELLED ON BY MY BOYFRIEND, so meeting Best Friends and Gees at night
15th: THE ACTUAL DAY- NOTHING ON THAT'S MEANT FOR ME.
16th: Mom's Birthday
17th: Hello Hongkong
18th: Hongkong Weekend
19th: Hongkong WeekEND

I always knew turning 20 would be bad, but not THIS BAD.
Fuck you, Titus Nah :(

2009-07-03T03:52:00.005+08:00

What I really like about life is how the important people stick around through it all. These are the ones who know how those who ended up unimportant have been dropped within a blink of my eyes, who acknowledge that something like that is pretty fucked up of my character but also agree that I'm a beacon for bloody weirdos and who love me without any intent whatsoever. These are the few ones I call my closer friends.

I have been told many things in my life, some lies, some angry hurtful statements, some honest though unexpected words. I know I shouldn't care that someone I let go faster than I snap my fingers almost as quickly did the same to me, or that some people have problems and assume what I do revolves around them, or that some people think they can read me like a fucking book and read me all wrong but are so self-assured that they are right, or that most of the time I care about people who cared about me only when they thought we could be more than just friends. None of these people should matter, not once they became psychos anyway. But still it bugs me.

I was taught since young that people are fucked up and I have to deal with their issues, but still I'm so unused to what I find out of the norm, or my norm. I suppose I want everyone to look at things from the surface down the way I do- if it's clear as glass, then granted you could be right, but if it's dark and murky or even the slightest bit indefinite then leave it the fuck alone. Don't ask questions, you won't get real answers; Don't dive in, because hell yes, I'm clear for as much as I try to be, but if you try to dig deeper down I gain myself a germ in my system and I start to detest you. And why fucking assume? You piss everyone off and still learn nothing.

The point of all I've written? I've gotten more than a few germs in my system- and all sorts of viruses if I could say so myself- and I just needed to write it off. I feel like so many things that have happend to me were such a waste of heart, of precious feeling, of retrospective kindness. Or weakness. I need some way to move away, not forward because that means I carry this all with me.

It has nothing to do with Stelli's photo either, I just liked the photo. Love you Stel.

Double-me

2009-06-30T01:08:00.005+08:00

I wonder if loving you and vowing to lose you is a cycle I go through periodically, and I worry that one day it will wear you out. I would say I will stop, but worldliness warns me that being a liar on top of being an emotional wreck is likely the worst way to go.

I know I love and hate in one same breath, so please always be so patient with me.

Bargaining chips

2009-06-26T01:20:00.003+08:00

In every relationship, you have a winner and a loser. The winner makes the rules, the loser risks everything. I once boasted to a friend about never letting myself in too deep, about knowing just the right point where enough was enough. I would not be more in love with someone than he or she was with me.

With you, I made that crucial mistake. I let the point go deeper and deeper. I let myself believe in love. Against my better judgment, I let myself trust you more than I trusted that night would turn into day.

So I lost (you could break my heart but I couldn't touch yours) and now I have nothing left to lose. Nothing left to lose, but you.

I'm still searching hard for the guts to walk away.

2009-06-23T18:26:00.002+08:00

( A belated birthday post for Lisa )

Happy 18th ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2009-06-23T11:05:00.003+08:00

WHAT IF I ALREADY HATE MY HAIR COLOR
AFTER JUST FOUR DAYS OF HIGHLIGHTING IT?????

18 June

2009-06-20T04:13:00.004+08:00

Spent.

Through it all we lived our lives

2009-06-06T22:47:00.004+08:00

(Fell in love in Vietnam)
Found happiness (happyness) where you'd never think to look. Learned about heartbreaking pain- from pictures of people I never knew; from a boy whose tongue I didn't understand.

Open eyes, open heart.
You think you're being a hero,
but you've done nothing with your life.
(A 6 year old can change your mind)

If I could I wouldn't stop,
but in truth,
it's only Time before I'm back where I always was.

2009-05-05T01:06:00.003+08:00

A while ago when we went out
We were really intrigued by horse butt heels

2009-05-03T00:52:00.000+08:00

Happy Family to Happy Andrew,
Happy 10th Birthday Boy ♥
May 2nd 2009

xx Hosan's Photos
xx Lydia's Photos

2009-05-01T18:24:00.003+08:00

The day Summer started..

2009-04-20T00:34:00.005+08:00

A rare photo of the Soc Sci kids after dinner

Shopping with Leigh for Nicky's present

& one extremely exciting hour with Melanie :)

To

2009-04-20T00:01:00.006+08:00

Rooftop studying with the loveliest company &

Birthday surprises,

& more to come

( Exam fortnight - Photo album )

Love you Nicky, Happy 20th (160409) :)
See you soon!

2009-04-15T14:35:00.005+08:00

TRIBUTE TO MELANIE, TO SUMMER & TO CHRIS' RETURN ♥

1:11am

2009-04-15T01:11:00.008+08:00

Tonight for the first time in a long time I actually made an 11:11pm wish and told a friend what it meant, & as soon as I get home Mel asks me to ask Shen to send me "the cute photo" and the above is what I received at exactly 1:11am on Skype.

Sometimes life is scripted beautifully ♥

Two days of beautiful

2009-04-12T01:53:00.008+08:00

It was Shawny's birthday friday night and Wild Oats Bar is a seriously lovely place, even if I got dreadfully lost walking out Mount Sophia with not a cab in sight, because I was headed in the wrong direction on a one-way street how stupid :( & I should never have gone to meet the stupid boys at Cathay all they try to do is pull me away from my studdieessss with talk of shopping & l4d & movies & drinks & clubssss

Also, rain or shine I am absolutely loving the prettiest place in SMU with Nicky and the essential Cs- Chicken porridge, Clam Chowder and Chocolate divine :) Mmm we're staking our claim on this favourite spot, now if someone kind would install lights for the nights, I think I just might never return home.

Photos up once I find the time to (after Thursday! Exams end then), meanwhile, deal with these gorgeous models and clothes, doesn't Tomorrowland look so yummy? :)

nirrimi

2009-04-10T14:43:00.005+08:00

( nirrimi photography )

mmm mmm amazing work from a 16 year old.

i'm dreaming of summer and everything it promises to be

flo rida

2009-04-05T04:54:00.001+08:00

( MEET MY )
( RIDES FOR THE NIGHT )

ha ha ha i am kidding
it is 5am so i get to make tasteless jokes.
sleepy lea = goodnight folks
omg i rhymeddddddd :D

4am leaves

2009-04-05T04:45:00.013+08:00

Warm from the buzz of liquor and good friends, they talk quietly, but idly, about their differences, as music from his merc's stereo played on in the background. There is the mildest distraction- light rain spilling under the street lamp like golden stars coming straight for them- and they step out to leaves falling from the tree she liked to call her own. A story she once told, or weaved as she lost track of where she had read it, and a story that stuck with him;

he reaches for the falling leaves as she laughs, barefoot on the damp gravel. Three, he catches, as he proudly presented them in his Muhammad Ali shirt, and three happy days it meant she received and kept safely over her heart when she found no pockets in her zebra print leggings. He walks her to her gate, and she suddenly trusts that of all people, he would most likely be the one who would pin the star on the three-storey high pine tree she loved.

~~"If this is love," she thought as the silent night took over when he drove on home at four thirty, "If this is love,"- she repeated to be sure- "it could probably last me a lifetime."~~

Oh, but it was not.

2009-03-31T09:40:00.005+08:00

( Christopher Raeburn )

I WANT. PLEASE.

Bintan - The Craziest Trip of My Life

2009-03-25T16:11:00.006+08:00

1. Get to beach for some stupid fun, before checking into the villa :)
2. Get buggy.
3. Try drifting with the buggy.
4. Nearly topple and die, stop drifting.
(Also, spend all the time searching for extra buggies to steal and race with)
5. Gain highest speed.
6. Stop on slope.
7. Hit accelerator.
8. Crash headfirst into 2 or 3 metre deep ditch.
9. Scramble out.
10. Figure out how to get buggy out of ditch.
11. Start laughing.
12. Hear Darren shout "FUCK LA GUYS!" as he crawls out completely forgotten and injured.
(He runs back to villa for aid alone, the guys follow minutes later)
13. Rush him to clinic for stitches.
14. Get back, realize half the day is wasted (Stupid service).
15. Start drinking.
16. Do stupid jumps off the staircases.
17. Strip the day-after-birthday boy Matthew.
18. Set his ass on fire with party sprays.
19. Do not help him (besides Terry), just stand around and laugh for a good five seconds. Burn yourself while at it.
20. After fire is put out, sneak into the empty villa (which is probably haunted)
21. Use the pool. (Lose bandage on head)
22. Try to drown your friend.
23. When that fails, kick him in the balls. Hard.
(Do not stop stealing buggies at all, such that the security officers begin looking for the Buggy Thief)
24. Go back to villa.
25. Pose for manly shots by awesome female photographer (hahaha)
26. Do all the "Private album" things.
27. Try to set the tree on fire.
28. Green spray can begins fizzing instead
29. Throw green can around in panic
30. Paint the floor, carpet, tables and electronics green.
31. Clean up.
32. Crash asleep from the craziest day ever.
33. Wake up for breakfast.
34. Break Hosan and Matthew's door lock when trying to attack them for still sleeping
35. After breakfast, visit crappy town with nothing to buy in it.
36. Head back quickly to get to the beach
37. Get to beach
38. Round Two of the Naked Race
39. Bury your friend in sand.
40. Leave him there.
41. Cover his eyes.
42. Call an innocent cute kid over to help
43. Sunburn his lips.
44. Contemplate leaving him there by himself since he wouldn't know anyways
45. Ask him to start trying to get out while sitting on him.
46. Take army showers in a public toilet.
47. Rush to the public pool to swim and clean the sand off.
48. Wash your slippers in the public pool.
49. Nap.
50. Fight over a clam that Ambrose declares as "Pretending to be dead"
51. Play with every metaphorical idea of "Cock" you can think up.
52. Lick a durian-flavored _______
53. Decide to cut Darren's hair.
54. Fail to find an electric shaver.
55. Take out steak knife instead and scare Darren off.
56. Call room service for scissors.
57. Rip up cigarettes and start packing a special blend.
58. Let the master stylists begin.
58. Darren's hair is perfect thanks to Titus, Amb and Matt.
59. Start the drinking games.
60. Try to set tree on fire.
61. When that fails, find bugs, lizards and glasses to flame-throw.
62. Get piss drunk.
63. Take buggy out to go to Silk nightclub.
64. Practise scandinavian flicks.
65. Silk is dead, go to the golf course instead.
66. Drive with headlights off to not get caught.
67. Have your friends scare you when they flash lights at you.
68. Get caught by security no thanks to the scare.
69. Get chased off golf course.
70. The buggy thief races off as security comes right at him.
71. Go back to villa.
72. Crash the replacement buggy into 1m deep drain.
73. Drag buggy out.
74. Smoke your way out of it with the security officers.
75. Head to haunted villa for swim.
76. Go back, don't bathe, and crash.
77. Wake up late.
78. The villa is a wreck, you barbarians.
79. Go banana-boating.
80. Kick the only one without balls in the groin.
81. Head to public pool for drinks.
82. Forgot cash, try to run off without paying for the drinks.
83. Get caught, charge it to the room.
84. Walk off to Haunted villa for final dip.
85. Realize the haunted villa's pool is f dirty, looks like someone died in it.
86. Go to next villa instead. Really clean.
87. The same escort who caught you crashing the first buggy catches you in the pool that you aren't supposed to be in.
88. "This villa was ready for arrival and they drove here and they say you are still swimming here!"
89. Go back to villa.
90. Puncture the tyre of the new replacement buggy.
91. Do NOT pack up the house, just chuck your stuff in the bag.
92. Head home, completely exhausted.
93. Get caught by ICA even after paying customs for cigs.
94. Get pulled into ICA's room for chewing gum.
95. Somehow, like what happend for the entire trip, get away without terrible consequences and only a sense of fun :)

rochers, perrier & cigarettes

2009-03-19T12:36:00.008+08:00

night lights on branches and gourmet park benches where the prettiest sight is a cigarette kiss- the faintest hint of one style my life was imagined, and the first i've felt in the longest time. i sat on the bus next to a nafa/lasalle student yesterday and i breathed her in to reminisce european dreams (there we go my history in a summary, dead desires never tasted but still thought of like pretense).. but today i am back to being another one of structure's clones.

faster than the speed of light
i'm holding on, i'm holding tight
cause stars are gonna crash into this place

and it's caught wide screen so we don't miss a thing
now i'm standing clear, cause all i've waited for is
...closing in

2009-03-15T02:18:00.003+08:00

yesterday titus told me i'm the kind of girl that boys won't be happy dating. maybe it was more casual when he said it, but it is sort of sad to be told you cannot give happiness.

compulsive flight.

2009-03-13T16:50:00.009+08:00

sometimes, retreating is stepping forward; sometimes, staying still is making a move; sometimes, hesitating is answering; and sometimes.. sometimes running away takes the bravest of hearts to do.

how brave are you?

2009-03-12T13:09:00.003+08:00

i know one day i will look back at last night and laugh

but until that day i am sorry, thank you boys so much,
mel i love you... & i'm never drinking so much again.

2009-03-01T12:39:00.002+08:00

( 28 Feb - Happy twenteenth, Ambrose! :) )

Amb's parents bought us dinner at Dozo Restaurant, and it was a really nice meal spent arguing over Barker vs SNGS (as usual) etiquette, Bintan plans, what to do to Ambrose and whether the dish you picked off the course selection was male or female typed.

Then Jeremy was stuffed in the boot (again) and we went to Cathay to catch Role Models. So appropriate :) Can't wait for 21-23rd March! ♥

2009-02-28T19:15:00.001+08:00

Waikiki 'o9
Where it rained like crazy

2009-02-28T03:49:00.004+08:00

( And all I do is study )

Kiat has a really really cute niece named Reika
and he has an uber comfy couch which I fell asleep on.
I like Kiat's colonial house.

Soc Sci bash held there would be so much cooler hhahah

2009-02-20T02:11:00.002+08:00

( Fei Zhai )

Happy birthday Jeremy :) I hope you had a good time, because I did, as scary as some parts of the night were.. Hahah, see you soon bui bui

2009-02-14T04:57:00.002+08:00

( V Party, 13th Feb, Treehouse )

V Party went better than I expected in the end, it was fun working with the bizcom people and spending time with this bunch of bishan boys / >3.7 people. And Seminar Room Antics (which I'm trying to upload) and supper opposite sunshine plaza was great :)

Just in case any of you stumble here, thanks to all of you guys so much for coming down and getting tickets from me :) Really hope you all enjoyed it.... even though I know some of you didn't! I'm still happy you all turned up though, and triple thanks to those who helped me out too :) Thanks alot, love love love

2009-02-13T04:48:00.002+08:00

( Soc Sci Tee Party, 12th Feb, Gotham )

So some shirts were hilarious, the games were amusing, the drinks kept coming, we were thrown out of a cab and Daniel puked on my red corduroy skinnies. At least I've half-fulfilled an age old wish of sitting outside any petrol kiosk with friends and conversation (the part that was missing was being accompanied by Ben & Jerry; we had cold water, instant noodles and hot tea instead)

2009-02-09T02:01:00.004+08:00

I miss you, Chris.

2009-02-06T01:32:00.008+08:00

I watched a rehearsal today;
I realized, I miss dance & cheer so much.

But I guess it's history now

have i mentioned...

2009-02-04T16:59:00.005+08:00

i burnt my hand (it's a second degree burn!!). it's really really hurting and very gross looking. well at first the burn wasn't gross, it was actually a very sexy bleeding heart shape. now it's gross though, but i covered it with a band-aid :) but the tail of the shape can still be seen. i'll show you all when i see you because i think maybe when i posted the photo of my bandaged eye it wasn't very good luck. but i do have a photo maybe i should put it up but the mottling skin can't really be seen so you'll think i'm exaggerating but i'm not.

and i don't know how the cullens became vampires really, a tiny burn on my hand is already giving me so much grief and pain. i think i would have died burning, which would have been a waste of good blood and vampire poison.

but the point of this is that i burnt my hand.
oh and that i was rejected by elephants.

2009-02-03T20:39:00.000+08:00

( Chinese New Year )
( is always happy :D)

I love my family to the littlest bits.

2009-02-03T12:57:00.005+08:00

31st Jan 2009
( Happy Birthday T )

I really like House, but I'm not keen on what you're doing (in fact I'm pretty fucking pissed) & so I'm not keen on writing more for you today.

2009-01-28T21:25:00.002+08:00

My sisters and I <3
& St. Nicks will always be ours

2009-01-28T21:10:00.005+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year :)

2009-01-25T18:12:00.000+08:00

On the 24th, "Three" -
for everything we've been through together

2009-01-23T17:10:00.000+08:00

Where I grew up. ♥

2009-01-22T03:08:00.003+08:00

Bailamos @ Zouk with Nicky, Mingy, Dd, Asshole, Clement, and later on, the floor with Soph, Kathryn and Brinden.

2009-01-17T16:48:00.002+08:00

Bizcom camp :)

2009-01-17T04:34:00.004+08:00

Have you met Mr. Robot Doll?

2009-01-12T00:37:00.006+08:00

Darren's birthday!

2009-01-06T07:06:00.005+08:00

Natg's back :) I really miss the SN dance girls, I feel so old and all the times we shared feels so far away in history. Much much love ♥

As it is though, I would really like to escape on an overseas exchange soon- Nat's life in USA sounds great, Chris is leaving so soon, and Titus in a year. Maybe back then I should've considered options abroad. Or maybe I'm suffering from school blues and the first ever December I remained in Singapore all round :(

Sometimes crime's fun

2009-01-03T04:00:00.001+08:00

The night of Jan 2nd is officially Crime Night.

Chris, Mel and Lea became, in chronological order of crime- arsonists, thieves, vandals, housebreakers (we broke in, what do you call those people), carjackers and finally er party-crashers (does that count?).

Girls just wanna have fun :)

2009-01-02T02:47:00.005+08:00

( Happy New Year 'o9 )

Family, Friends, ~~Fiance~~ Flame :)
(Got you there, Titus Nah!! ;D)

The only people missing from my NYE & New Year's Day 'o9 are my best girls ♥ Goodbye '08, you were so good while you lasted.

2008-12-31T15:45:00.000+08:00

tonight, 'o8 ends.
thus far, it's been one of the best years of my life :)

tonight this could be the greatest night of our lives
let's make a new start, the future is ours to find

the world starts to come alive when you stay close to me ♥

2008-12-27T03:43:00.005+08:00

ADone Christmas at Plaza Sing ho ho ho :D
Mandar the Australian and Jo the Londoner cameeee back :)

Love you people, and we missed Nicky <3

2008-12-25T03:05:00.001+08:00

Merry Christmas! (Countdown Night.)
I spent most of the Eve hungover, and doing last minute shopping. I spent a total of $586 on Christmas gifts for the family alone... Anyway, no photos of the night because the adults took most of them and my dad takes a year to upload stuff, maybe I'll post them next year.

P.S. Heard I was pretty unfriendly that night, but it was because I was hungover! Sorry Kevin Long and Jem and others..

2008-12-24T12:00:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Che! @ St. James
Apparently Titus can pass off for 23...
Anyway the last photo is of the legal cousins! Wah wah first photo together in a club hahaha :D

2008-12-21T02:42:00.003+08:00

My family is the cutest :)

Happy birthday Daddy @ Azur, Crowne Plaza Hotel, which was really great btw, I wasn't happy at first that we couldn't have the birthday cake we brought even though they don't sell cakes, but the manager was really nice and they even surprised us with a cake and song from out of nowhere. Perfect! (oh the buffet was pretty good too) :)

Oh and my eye is scarred slightly :( But fringe and shades have been hiding it fantastically (my Dad even mistook the shadows for mascara and tried to shout at me), and apparently it'll fade soon! :D

2008-12-18T19:06:00.003+08:00

Wherever it goes I'll always know

That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time, wherever you go

2008-12-11T20:46:00.002+08:00

Zirca was fantastic, we were treated to VIP, Vodka-out-of-a-bottle and free-flow of lychee martinis all night, and on the very first night we visited. Cheers to the ginas :)

( Mel's facebook album for the night )

2008-12-09T23:45:00.003+08:00

Guitar Hero World Tour and the >3.7 gpa people of SMU

2008-12-07T02:01:00.004+08:00

Shawnyy, Keithyy and Tittyyy the Raving Rabbidssss and Jack the pink toilet paper :D

2008-12-06T05:39:00.002+08:00

The only photo we got at the bestgirls sleepover and not even of the folks who did sleep over. In any case I'm really glad about it as silly as it was... :) Anyway, Ada's so crazy on the drums she broke my World Tour drums..

2008-12-05T15:35:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Terry Limster :)

and...

Love you Nicky Moosa <3
(facebook album for artsbash)

& last night was good fun with frappes and beers
with Wanying, Theo, Kumar, Sam and J :)

2008-11-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

Five adoners, guitar hero world tour, 6 bottles of drinks (and only slightly less than 1 finished, sigh..), drinking games, a drunk dog and pokemon made LGFUAD II last night a really great time for me. Much love xoxo

2008-11-30T23:38:00.001+08:00

Ambrose: "This camera lady is the prettiest now"
Cameralady: "Why do you all take photos in such a boring way?"
Ambrose: "So you think you damn fun la, auntie, you bitch?"

2008-11-29T11:41:00.005+08:00

<3 Nicky

2008-11-23T12:42:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I wonder how much we complicate our own lives, and in a specific sense, if we run away from the simplest of solutions for the sake of supposed selflessness or if we just like the drama. But I see all this and now I've decided I need to take the simple route out of a simple situation, but there is so much more to this than meets the eye, because my heart is in a million pieces as it is.

2008-11-22T04:12:00.004+08:00

my favourite weekend nights w the barker boys (minus a few) :)
p.s. watch body of lies and i love hani!

2008-11-19T02:20:00.003+08:00

From inside school the Christmas lights keeps me warm and fuzzy.

2008-11-17T22:56:00.003+08:00

Kev's then Arab St. with all the 8 Barkerboys :)
Kev has got to be the funniest/most traumatizing drunk alive... I will never forget the night (in addition to everything else which is nut any better, I swear, hahaha so cute).

Now it's time to study, study, study for these two weeks.

2008-11-14T23:53:00.005+08:00

Brewerkz with the ss boyz yesterday was good! It's going to be crazy busy ahead with the impending finals and individual assignment submissions, someone save me.

On a different note, I never thought I'd find some of the sickest beats (Blue Man Group, my friends) in Creative Thinking class.

2008-11-08T21:46:00.004+08:00

J'adore

2008-10-27T00:08:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Martinaaaaa Gourmet ;)

On a different note, damn tired of your bullshit, in fact, damn tired of everyone's bullshit. Trying to keep up isn't working, I want a re-invention of life and if that means cutting strings I can't help feeling like I just ought to go ahead and do that.

Postscript: Or maybe I just want to be a kid again.

2008-10-13T03:45:00.003+08:00

I know it's really easy for me to be judged a certain way, and sometimes I'm almost disappointed that I'm not actually like that, but really when it comes from specific people it just pisses me off. So stop it, you're not being funny, you're being fucking annoying.